I don’t want to be here. Husband is gone for the week. I am feeling like and idiot for the way I acted. I feel like a child.
I want to become content with what is again. i am scared to do that. it didn’t work out well before. I’m scared of a lot of things these days.
I know the who to turn to find what I am looking for. But I just can’t seem to do it. not fully. I find God to be too intangible right now. Funny though I can see Gods touch in many ways through all that I am going through right now.
Please depression loosen your grip on me. let me focus on the things that I am blessed with. let me see the positive. let me be happy again.