I cried a lot today.
most of it was probably unnecessary. over disappointments, that just need to be rethought and adjusted. some of it was justified.
I am tired. Tired of feeling fragile. I want to feel safe agin. and secure. how long till that happens again?
This all seems amplified today for some reason. PMS maybe. the news that my therapist is having surgery and won’t be working for a month. a feeling that so many people need me and I am just unable to be there for them right now.
I’m sad again. please God don’t let this depression grow. I want to be well again. whole.
I guess I should remember what my husband says. all we can hope for is that days like this become fewer and far between.
I know I will be better tomorrow when I see him and he can take some of the weight away just with a touch.