Sliding into the well

Been with my husband all weekend. It has been up and down As long as I don’t bring up the “friend” and try to make my feelings on the subject heard we are good. But if I do then it can get ugly.
Still I would rather be here.
We very much enjoyed the fall foliage festival here in the small town where he works. We went on a hay ride through a park. Got some beautiful pictures.
A down part of the weekend was all the calls about the kids at home. The adults at home. I really don’t like letting everyone elses demands make me feel so useless.
That is what is happening. I am sliding down into the well. And written on the wall are the words “not good enough, selfish, worthless, hopeless, unloved”.
Will my wishes ever be taken into consideration?
Or should I just give up? And move on alone?
I really want to know why I am so unimportant as to be ingnored by so many that I love. No wonder I feel like an insignificant human being.

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About aloneagain3

I am a wife and mother of 5 grown children... and 3 grandchildren.. I have been married for 29 years... I thought I did ok at life... turns out i sucked at it... but I am getting better!! View all posts by aloneagain3

One response to “Sliding into the well

  • diaryofacurvygirl

    I see this post after the others….I have not been in your shoes…but I have felt those feelings and let me tell you something. If your husband is having an affair, even if its just emotional…YOU are not the worthless one. I can’t help but feel so much sorrow for you. Don’t ever think it is you…it really isn’t.

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