Over the past months I have been encouraged to concentrate on myself. I have been doing that I think. Not that it is helping me. at least I don’t think it is. but for now I need to put myself on hold. Others need me to care for them.
My husband fist of all. He is losing his mother to cancer. I am being strong for him. I am pushing my own insecurities and fears out or down or somewhere so I can help him.
My children second. Yes they are all grown up, but they need me to guide them through their emotions as they watch their grandmother decline. each one of them deals in a different way. They can be very hard on each other thinking that one reaction is better than another. I am trying to let them know that they can deal with this in the way that suits them best and it is ok no matter what someone else may tell them.
My mother in-law of course. I intend to bring her joy, help her maintain her dignity. at least as much as she will allow me.
My sister-in-law. I have told her that she could call me anytime. (she won’t) but I am here for her. I told her I am here for her to yell at when she needs someone to yell at.
so I am on hold.