down in the pit. again. why?

I am feeling really blue today.  Hopeless, helpless, incompetent. 

I was supposed to do some positive self-talk this weak.  I can’t bring myself to. all I can think of is the negative.  I feel like everything is slipping away again.  What is wrong.  why can’t things just get better.  Why do the therapists keep telling me I am a strong person. i feel so week.  I feel like I have to prepare myself for the worst.  But I don’t know how.  I can’t.  I just can’t . 

I am afraid that being strong means giving up what I want most.  I can’t   I just can’t. 

I have to go care for my Mother-in-law for a few days.  I hope I can do it.  I don’t want to mess it up. 

I feel so lost.  I pray tomorrow will be a better day.  I pray that I am not really losing.

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About aloneagain3

I am a wife and mother of 5 grown children... and 3 grandchildren.. I have been married for 29 years... I thought I did ok at life... turns out i sucked at it... but I am getting better!! View all posts by aloneagain3

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