I am feeling really blue today. Hopeless, helpless, incompetent.
I was supposed to do some positive self-talk this weak. I can’t bring myself to. all I can think of is the negative. I feel like everything is slipping away again. What is wrong. why can’t things just get better. Why do the therapists keep telling me I am a strong person. i feel so week. I feel like I have to prepare myself for the worst. But I don’t know how. I can’t. I just can’t .
I am afraid that being strong means giving up what I want most. I can’t I just can’t.
I have to go care for my Mother-in-law for a few days. I hope I can do it. I don’t want to mess it up.
I feel so lost. I pray tomorrow will be a better day. I pray that I am not really losing.