today is my 49th birthday.
not old but not young.
I have gotten over 40 Facebook birthday greetings.
My husband sent me a wonderful email with a meaningful video attached.
most of my children have called or sent messages.
all of my siblings have called.
all in all it has been a good birthday.
I have a love/hate relationship with my birthday. I love having a birthday. The idea that it is MY day. A holiday just for me. presents are nice but not what is most important to me. I like having my family show me that they are happy I am alive.
I also hate my birthday. Why because I have had many disappointing ones. one year I had to make my own cake as a teenager. I don’t really hate getting older. but I hate that I expect things on my birthday. I don’t want to expect anything.
today was a good birthday. and I am not disappointed.