unimportant

does everyone else feel this way?

I have family.  I have friends, at least I think I do.  I have acquaintances. 

I think I go out of my way for at least one of these people. 

I know I am the one who keeps in touch more. 

Is this how everyone feels.  This makes me feel so unimportant.  I am not worth the extra effort.  who will go out of their way for me?  Who will call to see how i am doing or to ask me to lunch?   No one. that is who. and it hurts so badly to feel so unimportant. 

It appears that my husband would rather spend another night alone in the town he works in than to drive the three hours after work.  it is true that I have to work 5 hours tomorrow, but we could have spent more time than that together tonight.  maybe I am over sensitive, but I know I would be there to be with him if I was going there.    How the feeling of unimportance is magnified when it is reinforced by ones own husband. 

Oh well, it will make my husband feel valued and important to get the holiday mess cleaned up from our bedroom/attic. So I am going  back to that task.

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About aloneagain3

I am a wife and mother of 5 grown children... and 3 grandchildren.. I have been married for 29 years... I thought I did ok at life... turns out i sucked at it... but I am getting better!! View all posts by aloneagain3

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