my emotional earthquake

March 13

So my husband went back to the town where he works early today.  They had a saint patrick day celebration there  and he wanted to check it out.  I really wanted to go with him since I don’t have to work till Wednesday but it didn’t work out.  it seemed as if the moment he left I got extremely tired.  all my energy was gone. 

I was kept busy babysitting my grandson.  Yes we watched smokey bear again and again for about an hour.   I guess I am doing ok.   I can’t begining to express how much I miss him.  I am dealing and I am trying not to think of past things as much.  doing that seems to make me more fearful of discovering that what I think is improving is only me being made a fool of.  and that I will once again have my legs taken out from under me. 

I heard a reporter talking about the feeling of instability one feels in an earthquake, I have never experienced an earthquake, But I knew of the feeling she spoke of.  it was emotional and not physical.  there were aftershocks. and the magnitude was great. 

and just as rebuilding after an earthquake takes a long time, I am still rebuilding.  I think progress is being made. and I find the ground I am on not a shaky as it once was.

About aloneagain3

I am a wife and mother of 5 grown children... and 3 grandchildren.. I have been married for 29 years... I thought I did ok at life... turns out i sucked at it... but I am getting better!! View all posts by aloneagain3

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