Vacation starts tomorrow. and of course something happened to start it off with emotional turmoil. Of course it involved “her” Just a phone call.
A phone call that should not be taking place. A phone call the unwittingly showed that I am not always the priority. Not the one who is put first.
I feel foolish. worthless. not good enough all over again.
“How many times can I break till I’m shattered?”
My husband will be home tomorrow, he should have been here tonight but I kept him up almost all night last night. he will glue me back together again. funny how he is the one who keeps breaking me.
Yet I still belive with all my being that someday it will all be past us. “she ” won’t be part of our lives at all. No phone calls, no emails, no texts. “she” will be a true non-issue. not the don’t ask don’t tell “non-issue” that my Husband calls her now. I pray that day will come quickly. before I am shattered.