had a fun time going to some local small towns today and shopping in a couple of small shops. we also ate lunch at small diner. it was a nice time.
i had some periods of sadness today because i can’t stop thinking about the role “she’ plays in my husbands life. i sometims wonder if he really would be all that upset if I would leave him. of couse that is not what i want to do… i only wish he would let me know beyond a shsdow of a doubt that he wants me and only me.. not just to say well who do i come home to, who am i on vacation with. show me!