thoughts on being alone, and tomorrow

March 29

I am really missing my husband tonight. 

I wonder if he misses me as much. probably not. 

The song lyrics “I wanna wake where you are” keep going through my head. 

so many things to take care of.  getting the car fixed, getting this house in order, finance management, making sure I get my 10,000 steps in each day, family logistics due to the lack of one car.   it all seems too much for me.  I would rather just sleep and not think about it.  sort of the old scarlet O’Hare attitude, “I’ll think about that tomorrow”    I am afraid tomorrow is here.

And I am alone. dealing with it all alone.  I was never ment to be alone.  I know this about me.  so I have to tell myself to get tough.  tomorrow IS here. and I need to not only think about things I need to act. and I need to do it alone. The husband is miles away doing what he needs to do.  it is time for me to suck it up and do what I need to do.  I can do it.  Can’t I?  I want to do it. Don’t I? 

Still what keeps going through my mind is “I wanna wake up where you are”

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About aloneagain3

I am a wife and mother of 5 grown children... and 3 grandchildren.. I have been married for 29 years... I thought I did ok at life... turns out i sucked at it... but I am getting better!! View all posts by aloneagain3

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