had made plans with people earlier this week for two different things. one was supposed to happen today. it did not, no word, no reply to the message I sent, not anything. Just a no-show.
the other was for tomorrow. pretty sure it isn’t going to happen either. that person has not responded to my message either. I saw he has something going on later in the day that will trump what I asked him to do.
This seems to happen many times I make plans. you really can’t depend on anyone no matter what they tell you. I get a bit pissed off about the whole thing.
it seems that no matter how I try to arrange my life to be how I think it needs to be, someone or something changes that arrangement. I believe this has happened my entire life without me even realizing it was happening. I have wondered why I am the type of person who lets life happen to them instead of making her own life. I think this is why. Why bother trying to make things happen when something always gets in the way?
am I destin for this to be the way it goes for the rest of my life? Am I strong enough to change this pattern?