it is very early in the am. I have not gone to be yet. I feel as if it is still sunday. at the moment I am sad. I am thinking too much again. Thinking about things not answered. This is not good. sometimes I think my mind is the devil himself. of course if my husband had not done the things he has done I wouldn’t have anything to think about.
Five more nights alone. and next weekend I work till 9:30 friday night and then work all day saturday for a store event. The money will be nice and I have good use for it. but the time lost with the husband is rough for me. I already feel that he is going to say he won’t be home friday night. Why can’t he understand that when you are only home for the weekend it isn’t about days and nights, it is about hours. even if some of those hours are spent sleeping.
And please tell me why do I have to spoil a good weekend with bad thoughts? And why this, and why that? WHY?
and why do I need to know why? the answer to that is, I don’t. I just need to trust and believe.
God will. He will take away the bad thoughts. He will put an end to the things the husband does that feed the bad thoughts. He will make things right. I BELIVE THAT. I trust more and more each day.