someone hit delete please.

for the second time, I think it is only the second time, this week I am fighting demons of hurtful memories. 

How do I erase these memories from my mind?  They hit my body full force at times.  My stomach feels empty and burns.  I feel the pressure of a 100 lbs dead weight on my chest.  My hands shake and I find it hard to think about anything else. 

I would like to forget, I think maybe I could if there was absolutely no chance of more hurtful memories being added to the file. Maybe if the file was closed in all the  places it exists I could delete it from my memory bank.  

 

                               

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About aloneagain3

I am a wife and mother of 5 grown children... and 3 grandchildren.. I have been married for 29 years... I thought I did ok at life... turns out i sucked at it... but I am getting better!! View all posts by aloneagain3

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