sadness and hopelessness have set in again. sleep comes too easy, most of the time.
I mentioned to the husband the possibility of a separation, not with the intent to divorce, but to give him time to decide what he wants. And to give me a break from the pain of knowing that they still talk. He said no, absolutly not.
our 29th anniversary is saturday.
I don’t know. I just don’t know. that is all I can think to say. I had tought I would concentrate on the other issues in our marriage and put the other woman on the back burner. but I am not able to do that. not now, not after talking to her. not while I know she is sitting in the wings waiting for us to fail.
I guess I really do know. I just don’t want to face it.