still alone.

I am in pain today… physical pain.  I think it is my fibromyalgia.  and I think it has to do with all this rain.   or it could me that I am tired, not eating enough, and many other things that I do not do that I should or do that I shouldn’t.

My lower back hurt most of the day… I think that might have been from my visit to the chiropractor yesterday.  Then I had knee pain for a while.  At work I mostly unpacked boxes and frames and mats, so now my shoulders are sore.  I could really use a massage.

my frame of mind is ok.  not good but not overly depressed either.  the next two nights I work till 10:30, that is the worst part of working retail at christmas time, longer hours.  not to mention that I will have worked four days this week, I usually work only two.  The money will be a plus though.

I managed to get one of my little trees decorated today.  it has a garden theme, little garden gates, pine cones, berries, a watering can and a bird.  My grandson told me it was a handsome tree!

in all the busyness of the day I find myself feeling very lonely.   I read Facebook posts about others and their friends, which reminds me that I do not have friends.  I know people.  but I really don’t have friends.  I have tried to cultivate some in the past year but they seem to be too busy.

so here I remain.

apart from my husband during a time when we need to be together more.

friendless at a time when I need support.

alone again.  or should I say still.

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About aloneagain3

I am a wife and mother of 5 grown children... and 3 grandchildren.. I have been married for 29 years... I thought I did ok at life... turns out i sucked at it... but I am getting better!! View all posts by aloneagain3

One response to “still alone.

  • Lyka Ricks

    Laugh and the world laughs with you, Weep and you weep alone; For the sad old earth must borrow its mirth, But has trouble enough of its own. ~ Ella Wheeler Wilcox obtained from Alone Quotes

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