I am in pain today… physical pain. I think it is my fibromyalgia. and I think it has to do with all this rain. or it could me that I am tired, not eating enough, and many other things that I do not do that I should or do that I shouldn’t.
My lower back hurt most of the day… I think that might have been from my visit to the chiropractor yesterday. Then I had knee pain for a while. At work I mostly unpacked boxes and frames and mats, so now my shoulders are sore. I could really use a massage.
my frame of mind is ok. not good but not overly depressed either. the next two nights I work till 10:30, that is the worst part of working retail at christmas time, longer hours. not to mention that I will have worked four days this week, I usually work only two. The money will be a plus though.
I managed to get one of my little trees decorated today. it has a garden theme, little garden gates, pine cones, berries, a watering can and a bird. My grandson told me it was a handsome tree!
in all the busyness of the day I find myself feeling very lonely. I read Facebook posts about others and their friends, which reminds me that I do not have friends. I know people. but I really don’t have friends. I have tried to cultivate some in the past year but they seem to be too busy.
so here I remain.
apart from my husband during a time when we need to be together more.
friendless at a time when I need support.
alone again. or should I say still.