I felt extremely angry tonight. at many things. but mostly at my husband.
here we are in the middle of a family crisis and my mind is occupied with thoughts of him and Her.
When I mentioned something about her over the weekend, he said “can’t we have just one “Her” free weekend?” I told him tonight that he wants a “her” free weekend, but I would like a “her” free life.
so I am angry. angry that I can’t concentrate on the urgent issues such as caring for my daughter and my grandson to the full extent because my mind is occupied. angry that I have to handle all of this on my own.
I am tired of living alone. of being the one who has to do everything. I am tired of being relied on as if I were an employee.
I am not an employee… I am a wife.
The husband said not to long ago something about me getting more bitter and more angry. I’m not sure about the bitter part, but yes I am getting more angry. because there is more to be angry about. every day that passes that she is not out of our lives, I get more and more angry.
to stop the anger one of us is going to have to go, and if it isn’t going to be her it will be me.