angry

I felt extremely angry tonight.   at many things.  but mostly at my husband.

here we are in the  middle of a family crisis and my mind is occupied with thoughts of him and Her.

When I mentioned something about her over the weekend,  he said “can’t we have just one “Her” free weekend?”   I told him tonight that he wants a “her” free weekend, but I would like a “her” free life.

so I am angry.  angry that I can’t concentrate on the urgent issues such as caring for my daughter and my grandson to the full extent because my mind is occupied.  angry that I have to handle all of this on my own.

I am tired of living alone.  of being the one who has to do everything.   I am tired of being relied on as if I were an employee.

I am not an employee… I am a wife.

The husband said not to long ago something about me getting more bitter and more angry.    I’m not sure about the bitter part, but yes I am getting more angry.  because there is more to be angry about.    every day that passes that she is not out of our lives, I get more and more angry.

to stop the anger one of us is going to have to go, and if it isn’t going to be her it will be me.

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About aloneagain3

I am a wife and mother of 5 grown children... and 3 grandchildren.. I have been married for 29 years... I thought I did ok at life... turns out i sucked at it... but I am getting better!! View all posts by aloneagain3

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