I felt extremely angry tonight.   at many things.  but mostly at my husband.

here we are in the  middle of a family crisis and my mind is occupied with thoughts of him and Her.

When I mentioned something about her over the weekend,  he said “can’t we have just one “Her” free weekend?”   I told him tonight that he wants a “her” free weekend, but I would like a “her” free life.

so I am angry.  angry that I can’t concentrate on the urgent issues such as caring for my daughter and my grandson to the full extent because my mind is occupied.  angry that I have to handle all of this on my own.

I am tired of living alone.  of being the one who has to do everything.   I am tired of being relied on as if I were an employee.

I am not an employee… I am a wife.

The husband said not to long ago something about me getting more bitter and more angry.    I’m not sure about the bitter part, but yes I am getting more angry.  because there is more to be angry about.    every day that passes that she is not out of our lives, I get more and more angry.

to stop the anger one of us is going to have to go, and if it isn’t going to be her it will be me.

About aloneagain3

I am a wife and mother of 5 grown children... and 3 grandchildren.. I have been married for 29 years... I thought I did ok at life... turns out i sucked at it... but I am getting better!! View all posts by aloneagain3

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