surviving.

So on top of everything else that is going on, I now have a sore throat.

the 28-year-old came home from the hospital today.  so far so good.  no conflicts.

The social phyc. class I am taking is going pretty well.

Yet I feel as though I am simply surviving.   I want a resolution.  I want to live, not just survive.  I thought I was getting back to that, but now feel pulled in many directions.  I have to continue to stand up for myself.  To not be used by my children.  If I continue to allow them to demand that I do everything around the house I will not pass my class.  I refuse to let that happen.

they will have to step up to their own plates. and stop expecting me to pinch hit for them.

 

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About aloneagain3

I am a wife and mother of 5 grown children... and 3 grandchildren.. I have been married for 29 years... I thought I did ok at life... turns out i sucked at it... but I am getting better!! View all posts by aloneagain3

2 responses to “surviving.

  • Gab

    Stop being a control freak surely will help.
    So the dishes are dirty. Don’t care.
    So they don’t have clean clothes to wear. Couldn’t care less then they do!
    So the dirt is accumulating beneath the sofa. I have more pressing issues, like the long bath I decided I deserve for everything I ALREADY did for them! Ha, and I will ENJOY the hot water and the bubbles!

    Its a nice day to ddo nothing, and no amount of whining or pleading will make me feel guilty!
    Shuit up! ESPECIALLY you, the irritating voice coming from my head!

  • aloneagain3

    I am not a control freak… I don’t wash their clothes… only mine and my grandson’s (and only his so I don’t get pissed when I go to dress him and there aren’t any)
    I only do what I do so my husband won’t get pissed at me. and so I have a clean bowl to eat out of.
    control freak? no, stuck in a sucky life? yes. for now anyway.

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