do you ever have a day when you don’t want to be around anyone. yet you don’t want to be alone. I am having such a day.
when this happens to me I usually opt to be alone. maybe not the best option but the safest I guess.
What has happened that I feel dragged back into this sad, hopeless feeling? Nothing.
Nothing. that is the problem. I’m here in a holding pattern waiting for life to go my way. But why should it?
Life has never gone my way before. If it had I would not have lost my mother at the age of 6. My next mother would not have died when I was only 28. My children would have gone the normal path of college after highschool, marriage, children, and out on their own by now. My husband would have never had an affair.
No life has never gone my way. Maybe it is time to pick a new way.
or just go back to bed.