my sunlight

I had a terrifying thought tonight.   Have I taken on more than I can actually do?

Of course I talked to the 26-year-old added on daughter.  She said take it easy, you will do fine.

Of course I talked to the husband.   He said, you are going to do this, I went through… you and I went through too much to get you to this point so it doesn’t matter how you feel.   You are going to do this.   all I could say back to him was  “Yes sir”

Thank God for my girl… my sunlight!

You know I am going to get through this college stuff.  and I did probably take on more than I can handle.  but here I am and I will graduate in may,   it might not be a pretty as I would like, but I will do it.

Oh and according to the husband, I need a plan… I haven’t come up with a plan of study yet.   Just another thing I am doing wrong in his eyes.    My classes don’t actually begin till monday. and I don’t even have the syllabus for most of the classes so how can I have a plan when I don’t know how much time I am going to have to put into individual classes or what kind of studying I am going to need to do….The husband is convinced that I can not study at home.  When the time comes that I need to go somewhere else to study I will do it.

I hate that he doesn’t trust me enough to do this my way and not his.  Trust probably isn’t the right word.  Have enough confidence in me… he says he thinks I am smart enough, but he really doesn’t.

So I guess the plan for me should be to look to my sunlight for encouragement.

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About aloneagain3

I am a wife and mother of 5 grown children... and 3 grandchildren.. I have been married for 29 years... I thought I did ok at life... turns out i sucked at it... but I am getting better!! View all posts by aloneagain3

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