I had a terrifying thought tonight. Have I taken on more than I can actually do?
Of course I talked to the 26-year-old added on daughter. She said take it easy, you will do fine.
Of course I talked to the husband. He said, you are going to do this, I went through… you and I went through too much to get you to this point so it doesn’t matter how you feel. You are going to do this. all I could say back to him was “Yes sir”
Thank God for my girl… my sunlight!
You know I am going to get through this college stuff. and I did probably take on more than I can handle. but here I am and I will graduate in may, it might not be a pretty as I would like, but I will do it.
Oh and according to the husband, I need a plan… I haven’t come up with a plan of study yet. Just another thing I am doing wrong in his eyes. My classes don’t actually begin till monday. and I don’t even have the syllabus for most of the classes so how can I have a plan when I don’t know how much time I am going to have to put into individual classes or what kind of studying I am going to need to do….The husband is convinced that I can not study at home. When the time comes that I need to go somewhere else to study I will do it.
I hate that he doesn’t trust me enough to do this my way and not his. Trust probably isn’t the right word. Have enough confidence in me… he says he thinks I am smart enough, but he really doesn’t.
So I guess the plan for me should be to look to my sunlight for encouragement.