is this selfish?

the husband has lost his job again.  can’t even tell how I really feel about this.  we were supposed to have time together, just the two of us to work things out.  now he will be here at the house with me and the adult children and the grandson. 

I will be under more pressure to find a job.  I will be expected to only be supportive, no matter what.  which translates into putting up with calls to the OW.  cranky moods.  feeling sorry for himself.    I have been all of that time time again.   I am not sure I can do it again. really I have needs too.  BIG ones. 

The type of job I want to find is going to be difficult and I  don’t want to sell myself short on what I want to do. 

after just coming to discover what I really want and feeling more determined to get it I don’t think I can put it aside to be the old supportive me.   

is this selfish? 

 

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About aloneagain3

I am a wife and mother of 5 grown children... and 3 grandchildren.. I have been married for 29 years... I thought I did ok at life... turns out i sucked at it... but I am getting better!! View all posts by aloneagain3

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