yup that is me.. .pretending that everything is OK
pretending that I am not consumed by anger.
pretending that we are going to be happy while I am one of not the one and only.
I posted a few days ago about not being stuck… the Truth is I am stuck. but not for the reasons he thinks I am.
I can’t leave… I don’t have a reason why. I just can’t bring myself to do it. I guess I’m just not ready to give up. but I wonder what is it I’m not giving up on?
I’m not giving up on thirty years of my life. (positive)
I’m not giving up on a cheating husband. (negative)
I’m not giving up a the commitment I have made. (positive)
I’m not giving up on the man I love (positive)
I’m not giving up on hope. (positive)
So for now I will keep pretending hoping it will become real.