Can I survive this?
the husband is depressed. of course he can’t be depressed in the normal way. His depression manifests itself in aggression, dissatisfaction, and disapproval of me. any thing I do that is not perfect is a huge deal.
He makes me feel as if he hates me. maybe he really does.
The last time I went through this I tried to kill myself. I do not think that will be the path I take this time. Thanks to the hours and hours of counseling I have had I am in a much better place. instead of thinking he is right this time I just get pissed.
I hope he realizes what he is doing to us before it is too late.
I don’t need him as much as I did two years ago. I am stronger and more sure of myself. I know I am not the stupid person he wants me to think I am. He would never admit or maybe he doesn’t realize that he wants me to feel that way but he does. It helps to keep him in control.
I still alow too much. I am still “under his thumb”