Here is what is new.
1 I have a job interview on October 2.
2 I have had some students sign up for my classes and have enjoyed teaching the classes.
3 the husband is in the top three for a job (out-of-town again) we need him to get it for our finances… but I do not want to go through him being gone. although sometimes it feels like he is gone when he is right next to me.
Here is what is old.
1 I am still depressed… but not as much
2 The husband still has HER in his life. (I still hate her)
3 He still won’t forgive me for his perceived offenses toward him.
4 My children at still needy and stressful!!!
I am still committed to my husband and my marriage. I may have to distance myself from the hurt and pain he causes, but I am not going to end our marriage anytime soon. I have faith (although it may be the size of a mustard seed) that our marriage will be restored. I don’t know when. I don’t know how. but I know it will.
I love him. I was even beginning to doubt that. But through some prayer I realize that I do love him. I pray he will love me again too. God can and I believe he wants our marriage to work.
I am trusting in that.