not really having a good week.
I am consumed with thoughts of “their” relationship.
The husband tells me that we are going to be together for a long time. He isn’t going anywhere. well that is all fine and well. and it is what I want, however, I do not want her still in the picture. he calls her and she calls him and they text all the time.
I have told him to go and live with her for awhile and see if that is what he really wants, he says no. he says if that is what he wanted that is where he would be.
So where does that leave me? I don’t feel like I am his first priority. I don’t feel like he wants to be here with me, married to me, in love with me.
Times are hard for us right now without the difficulty of the affair. He has been unemployed since may. he has applied for over 70 jobs. and has had a handful of interviews. All of this would be so much easier to handle if I didn’t have to feel the pain of his betrayal every day.
I don’t get where his head is.
and I don’t think he gets the full extent of his actions on me and our marriage.