Sadness

The beautiful fall colors are gone. The warn fall weather is gone. The sadness of my life situation feels like a straight jacket confining me, constricting me. I have things to do. I don’t feel like doing them. I have always loved spending time with my family, today I wish they were not around.
I long for someone to call or meet with whose only thought is to make me smile.
I guess that person is going to have to be me.

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About aloneagain3

I am a wife and mother of 5 grown children... and 3 grandchildren.. I have been married for 29 years... I thought I did ok at life... turns out i sucked at it... but I am getting better!! View all posts by aloneagain3

2 responses to “Sadness

  • betrayalsurvivor1981

    aloneagain3,
    I’ve fought clinical depression ever since my early teens (I’m 53 now). I am on daily medications for it and I have a good psychiatrist. Your post today touched me deeply, and it reminded me of something I read yesterday (10/31/12): the 02/23/12 post from the Not Over It blog. I’ve “cut and pasted” it below in its entirety. God Bless You.
    betrayalsurvivor1981

    Not Over It
    DJ’s journey to healing after infidelity
    FEBRUARY 23, 2012

    Rainbows everywhere

    Depression – I thought I knew what that felt like prior to D-day. But I didn’t, not really. Now I do. All of us in this world of infidelity do. It’s just part of the world we live in now. I’m not always depressed anymore, but right now I can’t seem to shake it. It weighs me down, a heavy burden thrown on my back that seeps into my whole being.

    But then, in the last 24 hours, I have seen 6 rainbows! What an amazing thing! It feels like God is telling me that things will get better.

    I know they will get better. Whether or not my husband decides to step up to the plate and get better with me, it doesn’t matter. I will get better. I can’t shake the depression right now, but I will. That’s a lot better than the way I felt last year. Last year it felt like there was no way out of my misery. Now I understand that I have passed through this before and gotten better. So now I can say for sure that this, too, shall pass.

    • aloneagain3

      I appreciated your comments. thank you. knowing your are reading and thinking of me when you read other blogs is very helpful. I feel very alone right now. you are a blessing to me.

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