Alone.

What a bittersweet weekend. Had a nice holiday with the family. Although there is always a could over everything that makes things a little less joyful.
I did get to set a beautiful table, something I like to do.
The rest of the weekend retail hell. Actually as busy as Friday and Saturday were they weren’t that bad. Sunday however was awful Customers all seemed to want to argue or question the cost of the items they were buying. Made the five hour shift feel longer than the eight hour ones the two previous days.
Saturday and Sunday turned into family hell. I was foolish and made things worse with my daughters. I have apologized but that probably won’t matter. And now they have justification for treating me badly and acting like bitches. The difference this time is that I’m not going to put up with it. And I am no longer going to pretend that the lifestyle of going out drinking almost every night is ok.
So why the title “alone”? Well the husband has left for work out of town again. Although even if he was still here I’m not sure I would not still feel alone in this mess. Alone to put things back together. Alone to handle the home bills and upkeep. Alone No one to talk to about any of this. No one to lean on for support No one to gather strength from. Simply alone. Alone as I watch my children lead harmful lives and watch my family fall to pieces.

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About aloneagain3

I am a wife and mother of 5 grown children... and 3 grandchildren.. I have been married for 29 years... I thought I did ok at life... turns out i sucked at it... but I am getting better!! View all posts by aloneagain3

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