I find myself more consumed with thoughts of the affair than I have for a long time.   I wonder what things do they talk about. what was their sex like.  Is there a song that reminds him of her or her of him.  I am sure it has to do with the the distance between us.  I wake up in the night and have nothing to do but think.  When he was here I could find comfort in his presence, and touch.  

It can be torture wondering if he is awake, if I knew he was we could talk.  but if he isn’t and I wake him… 

If I believe that the copy of a text is true she isn’t happy with him right now.  He is showing her his loyalty toward me.  

Loyalty?  I want so much more than loyalty.  I want love and passion.  Devotion.  That is what I want.  but for now I will take what I can get.  


About aloneagain3

I am a wife and mother of 5 grown children... and 3 grandchildren.. I have been married for 29 years... I thought I did ok at life... turns out i sucked at it... but I am getting better!! View all posts by aloneagain3

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