I find myself more consumed with thoughts of the affair than I have for a long time. I wonder what things do they talk about. what was their sex like. Is there a song that reminds him of her or her of him. I am sure it has to do with the the distance between us. I wake up in the night and have nothing to do but think. When he was here I could find comfort in his presence, and touch.
It can be torture wondering if he is awake, if I knew he was we could talk. but if he isn’t and I wake him…
If I believe that the copy of a text is true she isn’t happy with him right now. He is showing her his loyalty toward me.
Loyalty? I want so much more than loyalty. I want love and passion. Devotion. That is what I want. but for now I will take what I can get.