Some day I would like to get the feeling that I am more important than money. Or the lack there of.
Some day I would like someone to through caution to the wind and say. I don’t care what might happen I want to see you. To be with you no matter what.
Is that asking too much. Is that too sappy. I am a hopeless romantic. Love is very important to me. Life has little to offer without love.
I used to feel very loved. It is different now.
I want that feeling back and then some.
I want to be desired. To be the center of someone’s thoughts. To be so incredibly missed that heaven and earth would be moved so someone could be close to me.
I don’t want to be obligated or responsible for the wants needs and wishes of anyone but my self and lover
I see other couples in my age range being couples. Being in love and being able to focus on each other when ever they want to. Not having to answer to their children about when and where they will go or be somewhere. I want that.
I now find myself angry and disappointed with myself because I not demanding these things in my life. I let this happen to me. I am stuck. And lack the strength to change my life.
I need to make a plan and set things the way I want them to be beginning now. Sounds great doesn’t it. In reality I’ll probably just go to bed.