I think I’ll just go to bed.

As I lay in bed thinking about the craziness of the last hour or so. I rehearse my words and actions for taking control and doing what is best for me.
It sounds good. It even makes me feel good.
Until I really think about actually doing it.
Then you know what sounds good? Death.
That is not an option.

So I’m back to the going to bed.
It has been pointed out to me that I don’t know how to communicate.
So I think I will just go to bed
It has been pointed out to me that I let people get away with what I tell them is not acceptable.
So I think I will just go to bed.
I feel alone and without an Alai in this world. I don’t need anyone while I’m sleeping.
So I think I will just go to bed.
Maybe I will get up someday Or not

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About aloneagain3

I am a wife and mother of 5 grown children... and 3 grandchildren.. I have been married for 29 years... I thought I did ok at life... turns out i sucked at it... but I am getting better!! View all posts by aloneagain3

One response to “I think I’ll just go to bed.

  • emotionaltornado

    Sometimes just staying in bed until it gets better sounds so good. Sadly I know that it doesn’t work that way. It didn’t stop me from staying in bed for days on end during the summer during the break down.

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