There are times when I feel like an inconvenience to the husband.
More often than not he seems happy to be away. Doing his own thing.
I hate it.
I want a relationship. He doesn’t seem to.
I want connection. I think he would be happy not to speak to me for days.
I want love. He wants peace.
I wish I could not answer his calls or not call him for awhile. I just don’t seem to be able to do that. Maybe if I could he would know what he is missing and really miss me. Maybe.
Or maybe he would find the peace he so desires and be happy without me.
I wish I could take the risk.