Another alone post

Thirty years ago I got married. I’m still married. I married into a “ready made” family. By the time we were married ten years we had four children.
Except for the times I rented places while on college, I have always lived with family. First my parents. Then my husband and children. Never just me and my husband.
I counted on this time in our marriage to be just the two of us. And what to I end up with. First, Adult children who should be out on their own still home. At least when they want to be.
Second an absent husband. Instead of having our time. He is working away and became so disenchanted with our so called life that he built a dual one of his own.
I don’t want to be alone!!!! I earned my time to have my husband all to myself. It has been denied me.
Tonight I am pissed. I want my life my way for a change. Why the hell can’t anybody cooperate with me.
I have no one to talk to about this. So I blog. I tell strangers. It helps and I love the feedback. But it isn’t the same as having a person physically here to just be with.
A good friend. MY HUSBAND.
I am so sick of it all!!!!

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About aloneagain3

I am a wife and mother of 5 grown children... and 3 grandchildren.. I have been married for 29 years... I thought I did ok at life... turns out i sucked at it... but I am getting better!! View all posts by aloneagain3

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