Out of reach

I am off work today.
No one is here but my grandson I am getting him ready for preschool.
I’m writing here now because I am lonely. I miss my husband. I want to call him. But I am trying not to call him too much. Besides. He probably won’t answer because he is working. And I get tired if getting is voicemail box do much. It makes me feel even more disconnected from him.
I am trying to be independent.
Somehow that seems like an oxymoron to me. Married and independent. Isn’t part of being married depending on each other?
It is three weeks today since we have
Been together. I’m not built to be apart. To be alone. This is unnatural for me.
I crave for more. Better. It all seems so out of reach right now.

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About aloneagain3

I am a wife and mother of 5 grown children... and 3 grandchildren.. I have been married for 29 years... I thought I did ok at life... turns out i sucked at it... but I am getting better!! View all posts by aloneagain3

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