Where I’ve been what I’ve been doing and how I’ve been feeling

Hello blogging friends.
Today I am doing the prep for my colonoscopy tomorrow. I will also have an endoscopy.
I have been off the blog the past couple of weeks because I was tired of writing negative posts.
There are times when I feel like a gullible immature fool and I need to retreat into myself and regroup. I guess. Either that or I am too depressed and lazy to do anything including posting on the blog.
There were a couple of times in the past two weeks when I thought that would make a good blog post. But I just didn’t get up from the bed to sit at the computer. Or get the laptop off the shelf and didn’t want to post from my small phone screen Which I am doing today.
I am at a place right now where the thought of being responsible for something sends me reeling. I’m selfish, but then I need to be so I can begin to put myself first.
I am so thankful that I have readers and followers. I have gotten messages checking on me these past weeks. And I am truly touched by them.
I will say. I am fine. Whatever fine is.
I have probably had more bad days than good ones lately. Many days I simply want to give in to the sadness and just live there for the rest of
My life. Some days it is a comfortable place.
But that isn’t who I really am and it isn’t how I want to live.
I hope to post more from now on. It is therapeutic And sometimes it keeps me out of trouble.
Thanks for reading friends and see you here very soon

About aloneagain3

I am a wife and mother of 5 grown children... and 3 grandchildren.. I have been married for 29 years... I thought I did ok at life... turns out i sucked at it... but I am getting better!! View all posts by aloneagain3

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