Sorry it has been such a long time since I have checked in, shared my thoughts and updated on my issues.
There have been nights in the past few weeks when I lay in bed and think of something and think ” that would make a good blog post” but for whatever reason I don’t get up and write it.
it would seem that infidelity and sickness go hand in hand. I am not sure if my current health issues are directly related since I have had anemia before, but it does seem to be worse. After D-day I spiralled into some more serious health issues, my Thyroid did a complete turn around and I lost 60lbs in about six weeks. I began having dizzy or light headed spells that we never did find a cause for and they went away. I had a cancer scare. I tried to kill myself twice. Of course that has given the husband a reason for why he stays married to me to give the OW. even though he knows that I am too strong now to attempt suicde again. I think she believes that. oh well, I am kind of to the point that I don’t give a damn what she thinks. MY husband isn’t going to leave me for her or anyone else. If our marriage ends it will be becasue I have had enough. (did you read that Diane???)
After a week home from the hospital I am feeling better, I actually stayed awake during church today. I haven’t done that in a long time. Several people told me I looked better too. I am still not eatting well, I am trying to do better but it is hard to change. Too bad I can’t afford a cook! I would eat three squares if someone cooked it and served it too me like in the hospital.
I have some follow up appointments this week so we will see what the next plans are for me.
Thank you every one who checked in with me over the last week or so. I am thankful to have you in my life even if it is in the blogasphere.
I am going to try to write more. and I wish I could think of all those things I wanted to post about and didn’t… I remember them being good thoughts.