The truth about who I am

I have decided to accept what I am and what I have always been.
A lazy piece of shit who doesn’t want to work.
I always have been and I always will be.

I am too lazy to change.

My laziness is why I don’t blog On a regular basis.

Even when I want to change I don’t. So I guess I really and truly don’t want to.

Because of my laziness I don’t deserve anything other than what I got.

You reap what you sow.

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About aloneagain3

I am a wife and mother of 5 grown children... and 3 grandchildren.. I have been married for 29 years... I thought I did ok at life... turns out i sucked at it... but I am getting better!! View all posts by aloneagain3

42 responses to “The truth about who I am

  • HopefulSorrow

    That’s depression talking, not who you are. It’s where you are right now. It’s ok. It won’t always be like this.

  • betrayalsurvivor1981

    1) (I’m on my slow-posting, word-limiting, snippets-posting-only, phone)
    Aloneagain3, as someone who’s currently on…

  • betrayalsurvivor1981

    2) depression meds, I KNOW that what HopefulSorrow (above) said to you is TRUE! You’re fortunate in that you have…

  • betrayalsurvivor1981

    3) cyberfriends who’re willing to tell you the truth! Whether the truth comes from a more soothing approach (from…

  • betrayalsurvivor1981

    4) mostly we women) or from a more hard-nosed approach (userdand [a man], on yr “ugh” post), it’s ALL the truth! And…

  • betrayalsurvivor1981

    5) b/c I care, my cyberfriend, I’m NOT going to mince words here: You.Need.To.See.A.Psychiatrist.NOW.! You need to be…

  • betrayalsurvivor1981

    6) treated for depression &/or whatever you are diagnosed as having. AA3, you’re a churchgoer as I am, so you KNOW…

  • betrayalsurvivor1981

    7) you’re playing right into the hands of the Enemy, who’s reveling in your defeatist posture! You will NOT draw your…

  • betrayalsurvivor1981

    8) husband TOWARD you by putting yourself down. He will move further & further AWAY from you. He will NOT love you or…

  • betrayalsurvivor1981

    9) pity you. But, he WILL continue to disrespect you MORE & MORE as you continue to disrespect YOURSELF! God has given..

  • betrayalsurvivor1981

    10) us doctors, clinics, hospitals, & medications. For Believers, like you AA3, He’s given us spiritual advisors….

  • betrayalsurvivor1981

    11) He’s given us friends–both in person & in cyberspace. But, mostly, He’s given us 24/7 access to HIM! God will…

  • betrayalsurvivor1981

    12) help us to HELP ourselves, but He will NOT help us to KILL ourselves! Lying down & giving up & beating yourself…

  • betrayalsurvivor1981

    13) down emotionally & mentally is a form of SELF-MURDER! The ONLY difference between the kind of “suicide” you’re…

  • betrayalsurvivor1981

    14) committing now and PHYSICAL suicide, is that the latter is final & permanent! YOU’RE STILL BREATHING, AA3!…

  • betrayalsurvivor1981

    15) I attempted physical suicide in the past. If not for the heroic efforts of ER doctors & nurses, two of my attempts..

  • betrayalsurvivor1981

    16) would’ve been successful. I knew I needed professional help & I got it! AA3, PLEASE call yr doctor’s exchange so…

  • betrayalsurvivor1981

    17) that she/he can admit you to a hospital, OR call a friend to take you to the ER, OR call 911 for an ambulance to…

  • betrayalsurvivor1981

    18) the ER. Depression is SERIOUS & DANGEROUS! Get.Help.Now.! It would be easy for me to say, “There, there, it’ll be…

  • betrayalsurvivor1981

    19) alright.” But, that would be a lie. You’re a human being, & it DOESN’T matter that You & I have never personally…

  • betrayalsurvivor1981

    20) met. I’ve been where You are, & I DO GIVE A DAMN ABOUT YOU! Aloneagain3, Please Get Help Now!
    Affectionately, 1981

    • aloneagain3

      I do see a therapist and a psychiatrist I am on medication. I do not feel I am in crisis. If I do I promise I will seek help.
      My plan was to take these three days I have off work in a row to get my house clean. Saturday I only did a few loads of laundry. (I did go to a pancake breakfast first Getting out of the house is good).
      My post about being lazy has to do with my life long aversion to house cleaning. It has caused problems in my relationship with my husband. I don’t want to use my depression as an excuse for not doing what needs to be done
      I feel like I’m in a catch 22. I can’t stand the state of my unkempt house. It depresses me. Yet my depression contributes to my unkempt house. Maybe I need to be on one of those tv shows.
      Thanks for your input. I do consider all you have to say. Keep it coming!

    • aloneagain3

      I wrote a long reply to this earlier. Did it not get posted?

  • betrayalsurvivor1981

    AA3 whenever you need a “build-up” boost again, rd my comments to you on your “ugh” post, detailing just SOME of your…

  • betrayalsurvivor1981

    2) MANY attributes. And there are more: your COMPASSION, your GENEROSITY, your KINDNESS, & your SENSE OF DUTY! I read…

  • betrayalsurvivor1981

    3) on yr blog many posts ago that you finished yr degree. That’s quite an accomplishment for someone dealing w/ a…

  • betrayalsurvivor1981

    4) resistant H, grown kids who mess up yr house but don’t clean up, & a young grandson who gets better care from you…

  • betrayalsurvivor1981

    5) than from his own mother! As for housecleaning: even people who love it have a method; & people who don’t love it…

  • betrayalsurvivor1981

    6) NEED a method. Don’t tackle a HOUSEful of cleaning: concentrate on a ROOMful of cleaning per day. Do laundry two…

  • betrayalsurvivor1981

    7) days per week (smaller loads), for example, rather than washing all of the loads on a single day. Of course, you…

  • betrayalsurvivor1981

    8) SHOULD demand that those dependent grown children of yours CLEAN THE HOUSE or GET OUT! But you won’t do that, for…

  • betrayalsurvivor1981

    9) some reason. You can, however, AT LEAST insist that they clean up AFTER THEMSELVES! Never plan for consecutive..

  • betrayalsurvivor1981

    10) off days to be housecleaning or laundry days. Make ONE FULL DAY a “YOU DAY.” Go to an enjoyable event, finish…

  • betrayalsurvivor1981

    11) rdg “Co-dependent No More,” do some of your arts & crafts, etc. On “YOU DAY” you may want to do just ONE thing…

  • betrayalsurvivor1981

    12) that relaxes you & gives you pleasure, OR you may choose to do SEVERAL activities that day. Of course that’s up…

  • betrayalsurvivor1981

    13) to you. Just don’t allow those spoiled-ass grown kids of yours to rain on your parade on “YOU DAY” for ANY reason,..

  • betrayalsurvivor1981

    14) as you did several posts ago on Karaoke Night! You’re the MOTHER. They’re the should-have-moved-out-long-ago KIDS!..

  • betrayalsurvivor1981

    15) PLEASE stop switching roles. Take care of YOURSELF first! THEN you’ll be better able to manage a LITTLE BIT of…

  • betrayalsurvivor1981

    16) housework per day, rather than overwhelming yourself trying to do ALL the cleaning/laundry in a SINGLE DAY! πŸ™‚

  • betrayalsurvivor1981

    Btw, userdand gave you some good advice on your “ugh” post. How’s that book-rdg going? Do we need to set a new deadline?

  • betrayalsurvivor1981

    A humble suggestion: as a courtesy, you may want to reply to userdand on yr “ugh” post; & to HopefulSorrow (above). πŸ˜‰

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