Today my counselor gave me a new homework assignment. I am to keep a daily journal… DAILY I don’t do anything daily. ugh. I am to answer three questions every day. They are about my worth and impact on others. I have been given this assignment because my depression seems to be worsening and I am becoming comfortable there. I really don’t care about much. I get up and go to work when I am scheduled. I watch my grandson when needed. I drive my daughter to and from work. but for the most part I don’t do anything. Well that isn’t entirely true. I have gone out for a drink a couple of times in the past two weeks. and I did go to a baseball game with my daughter and grandson but she really didn’t give me a choice. and then there were the two walks I took this week. but when I am home I can’t bring myself to do anything that needs to be done. If I posted pictures of the state of my home right now you all might be calling one of those reality shows about doing a clean sweep or something like that. it is not “hoarders” worthy but it is a mess.
So for my journal tonight I accounted for everything I did all day and what it was worth. What I wrote was a stretch but it is a beginning and I see the value of doing it. maybe at some point I will post some of my entries but for now I am to keep them private.