An incredible mess

Having a very bad day.
It started last night.
I need my husband and he isn’t here for me physically. But more importantly emotionally.
There is nothing I can do. He blames me for everything How convenient for him to have me so he doesn’t have to take any responsibility for the condition of our lives.
I’m crushed.
I know we need money to survive. I know if I had done things differently we would have savings. I know if he had done things differently we would have savings.
No life didn’t have to be this way. But it isn’t ALL my fault. We are both to blame.
Life is hard enough with the challenges I just described. Then he goes and makes it worse by having this affair. How is this helping anything???
It isn’t. I often feel it is his way of punishing me.
There are enough consequences for how we mismanaged our lives. I don’t need punishment from him.
What an incredible mess.

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About aloneagain3

I am a wife and mother of 5 grown children... and 3 grandchildren.. I have been married for 29 years... I thought I did ok at life... turns out i sucked at it... but I am getting better!! View all posts by aloneagain3

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