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Abandoned

I feel so disconnected from every one. It is debilitating to feel as if there is no one you can turn to for love help and support.
Everyone has their own issues. Their own lives.
I feel very alone. I feel as if I have no one to say “let’s go conquer the world together” to.
Isn’t that who a spouse is supposed to be?
I can’t even tell him my simplest feelings. I feel abandoned.
That’s kind of the story of my life.


Out of reach

I am off work today.
No one is here but my grandson I am getting him ready for preschool.
I’m writing here now because I am lonely. I miss my husband. I want to call him. But I am trying not to call him too much. Besides. He probably won’t answer because he is working. And I get tired if getting is voicemail box do much. It makes me feel even more disconnected from him.
I am trying to be independent.
Somehow that seems like an oxymoron to me. Married and independent. Isn’t part of being married depending on each other?
It is three weeks today since we have
Been together. I’m not built to be apart. To be alone. This is unnatural for me.
I crave for more. Better. It all seems so out of reach right now.


This sucks

I was not meant to be alone. I have taken personality tests before and to no ones surprise I am a realtor. Relationships are what is most important to me. I need to have people in my life.
Ironic isn’t it that my most important relationship has been primarily long distance for 14 years.
At least we had weekends together. Until now. All I can say is. THIS SUCKS


This sucks

I was not meant to be alone. I have taken personality tests before and to no ones surprise I am a realtor. Relationships are what is most important to me. I need to have people in my life.
Ironic isn’t it that my most important relationship has been primarily long distance for 14 years.
At least we had weekends together. Until now. All I can say is. THIS SUCKS


Please God.

June 9

Will the security of what my marriage once was ever return? 

That is really all I have to say today.  I am so not happy about the place my husband holds in “her” life.  

I don’t think there is anyone for me to even talk to about any of this. 

I am so tired of feeling alone.   Please God, restore.  restore my marriage, restore my faith in love, restore my security.