Tag Archives: insecurity

Please God.

June 9

Will the security of what my marriage once was ever return? 

That is really all I have to say today.  I am so not happy about the place my husband holds in “her” life.  

I don’t think there is anyone for me to even talk to about any of this. 

I am so tired of feeling alone.   Please God, restore.  restore my marriage, restore my faith in love, restore my security.


March 7

Ok  this is the third week  that we are  back to the old way of my husband being gone all week and just seeing him on the weekends.   I HATE IT!   with every week that passes I begin to feel more like a sidebar to his life.  I do think I may be a bit over sensitive.  But I would like to hear him  tell me that he misses  me.  He does tell me he loves me when we say goodbye.  I am insecure.  but who can really blame me.

I am so looking forward to our vacation in two weeks.  we aren’t going anywhere special.  we have a time share we bought last year.  that is where we will be.  it will be a time to relax and just be together. 

My sister has a timeshare at the same place and they are supposed to be there that week too. so we will have to spend some time with them but I don’t think too much. 

I am counting the days till we get back to spending more time together than apart so I can feel normal again.  and I won’t have to feel as insecure.