I guess I did a stupid thing tonight. I decided to follow through with my plan to get the exam due by midnight on the 27th out-of-the-way early so I could get ahead on the work for the next couple of days, even though the grandson was not fully asleep.
He interrupted me enough that I did not get the test submitted before time ran out, by seconds.
now I have a zero on the exam. I have sent an email to the professor asking that she accept it anyway and the reason why I exceeded the time limit. We will see what she says.
so my grade has gone from an 89% to a 71% because of this. I am more than pissed. at myself, at my grandson, at my daughter for taking so long to get home. and at my son who came home but didn’t stay to help me out. I am so tired of being angry and for having reasons to be angry.
I began my on-line class this weekend. I think I like the method of teaching through quiz taking. Although I need to chill about the score and use it as more of a study tool. tomorrow I will re-take chapter 2 quiz a few more times. and then move on to the exam for chapters 1 and 2.
So this is what else is going on. 28-year-old is still in the hospital recovering from her gunshot wound. 21-year-old announced that she is pregnant and is going to get an abortion. couples counselor told us he will no longer be counseling us because there has been little or no (mostly no) progress in one of the big issues we went there for, the husbands continued relationship (no matter what level it is on) with Her. The husband will begin individual counseling and I will continue with mine. I would still like to be having couples counseling and hope we can get back to it soon.
five days till christmas and I am certainly not ready and I don’t think I will be. Funny, I am actually ok with that. I have never been ok with that before. I have some gifts bought, most decorations up, no baking done. It has always been very important to me to have a beautifully decorated house and cookies and breads to give away, but this year it just isn’t.
I guess I am getting stronger, I feel that I could handle life on my own. I am feeling stronger. I am making decisions that are more healthy for me. although I am taking baby steps at least I am moving forward.